boost the confidence!

HELLOS.
im posting :D

shujing asked me
:"you so free and so much things
to say mehh? how come can post
everyday one?"
hahas.
im not.
but i make it a point to (:
dont ask me WHYY?
i just do (:

yupp.
the hols are coming :DD
so is SPEX.
during hols got SPEX.
yupp.
BEST WISHES TO ME~ :D
i knoe you all do (:
im sryy im not free during the hols.
but you all can organise and i'll see if i can
fit in the timing (:
dont wait for me..
i'll miss you guys though (:
all take cares kayy (:
o2ian foreva =)

been missing out alot.
really alot.
my studies has been getting worst :(
i needa concentrate.
A1s!
i want you!
and i shall get you :D
dont run or hide.
A1s and VJC!
you're MINE (:

speaking abt SPEX.
im not really ready.
i dont see my clear goal.
its just a blurr image.
its getting nearer.
its THE topic.
i do have an aim.
but deep down i dont think i can make it.
i need the confidence.
i need the perservance.
i need the strength.
i need the motivation.
i force myself to believe i can make it.
even though theres still this part that denies it.
the passion..
the love..
it fades with time.
dying gradually...

i've faced the failures.
probably having the phobia.
i still do love tennis.
thats whyy i chose it over many.
but i do miss the life i used to have.
now i've given it all up becox
of this commitment.
and im still not sure if its worth it.
i want that life back.
but i do want tennis too.
i've been missing out in too many things
and i dont feel that its all worth it.

can i handle both plus my studies
without any disruption?
time management.
yess. i knoe.

im having a busy day tMl.
rest early.