pull me up

results were depressing ):
amg, feel so loser.
i really really really need to work harder and harder and much much harder

feel like i've disappointed you and mostly, myself, bad.
damn it tessa, why can't you ever keep to the promise that you've mentioned over and over again?
regretting now's damn hell too late,
crying bucketloads isn't going to help.
come on, get a grip, it's only the beginning
there's still four years and more to pull through.

tug forwarddddd~