Everyone Wants

I want to mug. I want to score well. I want straight A's. But the want is never enough, I've got work for it. But damnit, just can't focus. If only focus could be an obedient dog that would abide diligently to my rulings. I guess the want to dream, daze, relax is just so much greater. Maybe it's the shifting of priorities. I think I have unknowingly reshuffled my priorities, and have just been bumming around in life. Ah, but knowing isn't gonna get me anywhere, got to do something about it. But sometimes, when you know it's impossible, there isn't a point in trying so hard anymore.

So tired, so tired. Seeing everyone mug ferociously makes me stress, it adds pressure. I want to be able to mug like that too. Oh babymuggy, come back to me! If time could just pause for awhile. No, that just my time, everyone else's too. 'Kiasi-ness' does that to you, you never want to lose out.

It seems stupid-this whole 'tired-of-exam-thing'. Like geez, how many times have you gone through this before?! Shouldn't it be like a 'routine' or sorts already, get over it.

When the going gets tough,
Only the tough gets going.

I'm facing the former, but not being the latter.

Talk is cheap.