One chance to touch a star,

Ah, all the buzz around on fb and stuff about the choices of our subject combis. Guess I've pretty much made up my mind really early on in the year, with just a little fluctuations on whether or not I should take up Sciences instead to open up my arena. Pretty much certain with the choice that I'm gonna indicate and begin to pursue coming this Monday. Yet, there's still a tinge of hesitation inside of me, not wanting to put down that dream just as yet.

Predict I'm gonna be pretty emotional that day, having to, finally, put down the little dream which I have quietly carried in me for these few years. Not to say that I don't fancy the Arts that much, which is definitely horribly wrong (I have a passion like the sky for the Arts), but I fancy Sciences too, also since they allow for a broader spectrum of choices. And ahhhh, I just think that everything is important and interesting, and I would really really wish I could study everything ): Unfortunately, due to my limited capacity, I feel (or at least I hope I feel) that made the right choice to chose something that I'm both passionate, and do considerably well (if not, acceptable) in. I WANT TO BE AN OUTSTANDING STUDENT, more than just average. I know I've said before that if I, at a later time, choose to really turn around and go back to pursue that line, I would know that I've to work doubly, or even thrice or a thousand times harder, that I'm aware of the need to do so, and I will be prepared to do so. But we all know, that talk is easier than words, when the time comes, will I really be prepared and ready for it? Ah geez, honestly, I don't think I need to wait til that day to feel it, the preparation's gotta start now... (I need an emotional time-out) -shrugs-

All in all, I still don't know if it is the right choice, but what I do know, is that it is the best choice. And I will convince myself that it is.

Sigh..

BUTTTT, in any case, life goes on and I NEED TO BEGIN ON MY SCHOLARSHIP APPLICATION, PRONTO.

Oh seriously, someone just shoot me, please.