Be better than okay, better than ever

So perhaps its only when the going gets tough and harder than usual that i'll pluck out the time to pen down some of these thoughts..

Yesterday was a heck of a roller coaster ride..

To see you cry really pains me and wonder if i should have even have led you on from the beginning if it was going to lead up to this..

Better to be hurt myself then hurt you as well, no?

Not sure what to do now; it's like being caught in a naught - not knowing which side to go. As much as i'd like to comfort and be there for you, it's like i'm only afraid of hurting you further, because perhaps there is a chance that what you need is not me but something beyond me.

Not sure if what I am doing is right, if to do anything would be right at all.

It hurts but I hope you'll be okay, better than okay, better than ever.

And until then..