Till then - so long

15/4/14 2:32:57 pm: chocho⛄️: Just curious tho and if you dont mind me asking..

15/4/14 2:33:27 pm: chocho⛄️: How come you dated fion uh heh

15/4/14 2:35:51 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Told u is because my friend pangseh me for 8aug

15/4/14 2:36:00 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: So i just randomly asked

15/4/14 2:36:47 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And leon eugene calvin etc all met her. So ask me bring her out again and again

15/4/14 2:52:26 pm: chocho⛄️: Oh yea 8 aug lol forgot lolll

15/4/14 2:52:48 pm: chocho⛄️: Eh but i thought you said smth like you dated her for a few months of smth?

15/4/14 2:53:00 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Few wks 😡

15/4/14 2:53:12 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: 2-3wks

15/4/14 2:53:32 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Before main comm rally.

15/4/14 2:53:41 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: 2wks

15/4/14 2:54:52 pm: chocho⛄️: Ohh hahah cannot really rmb 😅

15/4/14 2:54:58 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U drunk

15/4/14 2:55:02 pm: chocho⛄️: Abt the same la lol

15/4/14 2:55:12 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: 2wks la where got same

15/4/14 2:55:42 pm: chocho⛄️: But you consider it a date whatt

15/4/14 2:55:48 pm: chocho⛄️: So same same la lol

15/4/14 2:55:56 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Not really la. Only go rounding.

15/4/14 2:56:19 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Never even eat lunch together

15/4/14 2:57:24 pm: chocho⛄️: Lol but you ownself tell me date oneee

15/4/14 2:57:30 pm: chocho⛄️: Semo not really lol

15/4/14 2:57:39 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: What r u trying to ask anyway?

15/4/14 2:57:44 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Wats ur point

15/4/14 2:57:59 pm: chocho⛄️: I not drunk to the extent cannot rmb anything ogay 😧

15/4/14 2:58:04 pm: chocho⛄️: No la curious lol

15/4/14 2:58:56 pm: chocho⛄️: Just wonder why lo like what you see in her that you'll ask her out?

15/4/14 2:59:17 pm: chocho⛄️: But then it always sounds like your friends ask you to ask one lol

15/4/14 2:59:39 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Idk la. Just ask lo. Cos 8aug they ask everyone bring plus1

15/4/14 3:03:09 pm: chocho⛄️: Orhh no wonder your friends will comment that everytime see you got new girl lololl

15/4/14 3:03:30 pm: chocho⛄️: Okay la i dont ask alr so awkz lol

15/4/14 3:03:46 pm: chocho⛄️: Du shu bah~

15/4/14 3:03:44 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Who comment? Lol.

15/4/14 3:04:16 pm: chocho⛄️: Sometime ago uh quite long ago dont rmb lol

15/4/14 3:04:47 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Lol. Watever lo

15/4/14 3:11:28 pm: chocho⛄️: Lol whatever semo

15/4/14 3:11:34 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Nth lo

15/4/14 3:11:54 pm: chocho⛄️: ?

15/4/14 3:12:06 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: What u want to ask?

15/4/14 3:12:36 pm: chocho⛄️: Eh i asked alr what

15/4/14 3:12:43 pm: chocho⛄️: What more sld i be asking lol

15/4/14 3:12:51 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Ok la nth lo

15/4/14 3:12:58 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I alr said nth lo

15/4/14 3:13:06 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Den u ? Me

15/4/14 3:13:13 pm: chocho⛄️: Okezz

15/4/14 3:13:31 pm: chocho⛄️: Eh?

15/4/14 3:13:54 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: ???

15/4/14 3:13:59 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: What??

15/4/14 3:14:10 pm: chocho⛄️: What abt me

15/4/14 3:14:26 pm: chocho⛄️: What you asking? Lol nvr compkete your sentence

15/4/14 3:14:23 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: DEN YOU "?" ME

15/4/14 3:14:39 pm: chocho⛄️: Ohh

15/4/14 3:15:26 pm: chocho⛄️: I meant what nth? What thing whatever?

15/4/14 3:15:28 pm: chocho⛄️: Lolll

15/4/14 3:15:35 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Aiya nothing la

15/4/14 3:15:45 pm: chocho⛄️: Ya lo

15/4/14 3:15:46 pm: chocho⛄️: Lol

15/4/14 3:15:44 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Why i say nothing u also want to ?

15/4/14 3:16:04 pm: chocho⛄️: Curious la curious

15/4/14 3:16:09 pm: chocho⛄️: Mind boggling

15/4/14 3:16:09 pm: chocho⛄️: Lol

15/4/14 3:16:13 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Whats curious about nothing?

15/4/14 3:16:24 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Why i say nothing u also curious

15/4/14 3:16:39 pm: chocho⛄️: No la as in overall curious lol

15/4/14 3:16:42 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Ok den ask lo

15/4/14 3:16:49 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I tot u ask finish liao

15/4/14 3:17:00 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Why still curious

15/4/14 3:17:21 pm: chocho⛄️: Nahhh dowan ask le lol

15/4/14 3:17:54 pm: chocho⛄️: Later say i think too much again lol

15/4/14 3:18:10 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Why u want to ask anyway

15/4/14 3:18:25 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Why u so curious to noe

15/4/14 3:19:22 pm: chocho⛄️: Cannot know ah

15/4/14 3:19:28 pm: chocho⛄️: Nothing la nothing

15/4/14 3:19:35 pm: chocho⛄️: Think too much kk

15/4/14 3:19:35 pm: chocho⛄️: Lol

15/4/14 3:19:47 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: What u thinking

15/4/14 3:20:01 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U never will say out what u think one wad

15/4/14 3:20:26 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U will never tell me what u think anyway

15/4/14 3:21:16 pm: chocho⛄️: ...

15/4/14 3:21:56 pm: chocho⛄️: Perhaps ive not said it out directly but i think i did somewhat tell you before what

15/4/14 3:22:06 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Tell me about what

15/4/14 3:22:23 pm: chocho⛄️: And i always get scolded whenever i say what i think what

15/4/14 3:22:36 pm: chocho⛄️: Where got nvr tell you what i think before

15/4/14 3:23:04 pm: chocho⛄️: Wo mei you meh..

15/4/14 3:23:11 pm: chocho⛄️: You shuo guo what..

15/4/14 3:23:53 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U got meh. When did u tell me what u think

15/4/14 3:24:26 pm: chocho⛄️: Gott

15/4/14 3:24:34 pm: chocho⛄️: What you referring to

15/4/14 3:24:38 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Everything lo

15/4/14 3:24:47 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U dun even tell me what u want to eat

15/4/14 3:24:59 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: So ur everything=nothing

15/4/14 3:25:02 pm: chocho⛄️: I got say hao bu hao

15/4/14 3:25:12 pm: chocho⛄️: 😒

15/4/14 3:25:52 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Idk la

15/4/14 3:25:55 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: 很累

15/4/14 3:28:35 pm: chocho⛄️: Wo dou bu zhi dao wo dui ni shi semo

15/4/14 3:28:50 pm: chocho⛄️: 很累jiu rest lo..

15/4/14 3:29:11 pm: chocho⛄️: Fan zheng ni xian zai bu shi zai rest liao..

15/4/14 3:31:32 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: same as what i told u last monday lo

15/4/14 3:31:44 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I think it took a downturn in late march bah

15/4/14 3:31:58 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Just feeling more and more uncertain

15/4/14 3:34:05 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And what i said to u in october is true. About 50% and 50% and 100%

15/4/14 3:34:40 pm: chocho⛄️: What 50% and 100%

15/4/14 3:35:04 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I told u in october abt 50% heart and 50% head

15/4/14 3:36:32 pm: chocho⛄️: And i can tell abt the downturn. Which honestly doesnt come at a complete surprise cause you already told me that at 5 months down the road you cldnt tell me for sure what'd happen but still it surprises

15/4/14 3:36:56 pm: chocho⛄️: What 50% heart and head. You got 50 50 meh

15/4/14 3:37:06 pm: chocho⛄️: Thought you were full head lol

15/4/14 3:37:43 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I told u before 50-50 wad. When each 50% isnt full it cant make 100%

15/4/14 3:39:03 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I told u before my previous ex was 100%. And thereafter everyone doesnt meet 100%. If people dont meet my head 50% i wont even try

15/4/14 3:39:50 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Because the head 50% usually doesnt go upward

15/4/14 3:40:35 pm: chocho⛄️: Uh huh.. So the point being?

15/4/14 3:41:01 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: What u wanted to tell me abt the downturn?

15/4/14 3:41:39 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: What 5mth?

15/4/14 3:41:50 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: We met for 7mth alr

15/4/14 3:42:29 pm: chocho⛄️: So whats the point abt the 50 50 head and heart

15/4/14 3:42:37 pm: chocho⛄️: You can speak finish first

15/4/14 3:44:10 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I started going out with u because when i first met you u met almost 50% of my head la. Like ur character and all

15/4/14 3:44:37 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: So to me its worth knowing you more.

15/4/14 3:45:03 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And you always held that 50% firmly

15/4/14 3:45:38 pm: chocho⛄️: And the point of bringing this 50-50 discussion up again now is because...?

15/4/14 3:45:58 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Aiya we can dont discuss

15/4/14 3:46:07 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: is u ask me to say one

15/4/14 3:46:18 pm: chocho⛄️: Im not saying dont discuss

15/4/14 3:47:07 pm: chocho⛄️: Im asking why you suddenly bring it up again when i thought what you werejust saying is that you are uncertain now

15/4/14 3:47:26 pm: chocho⛄️: Like whats the link?

15/4/14 3:47:52 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Cos i tot u wanted a scientific quantifiable explanation

15/4/14 3:48:44 pm: chocho⛄️: Uhm no?

15/4/14 3:48:50 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Ok then

15/4/14 3:48:53 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Nth to say alr

15/4/14 3:49:31 pm: chocho⛄️: I thought you'd be talking abt some changes in the numbers or smth since you're now uncertain

15/4/14 3:50:04 pm: chocho⛄️: Lol if it remains at 50 it doesnt really seem uncertain lolol

15/4/14 3:50:25 pm: chocho⛄️: So after you started that i got a bit confused

15/4/14 3:50:30 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Maybe my other 50% fluctuates?

15/4/14 3:50:47 pm: chocho⛄️: I see

15/4/14 3:51:13 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Last wk i told u sometimes i split personality

15/4/14 3:51:32 pm: chocho⛄️: Yeaaaaa

15/4/14 3:51:56 pm: chocho⛄️: So it fluctuates because of the split?

15/4/14 3:52:06 pm: chocho⛄️: (Raises eyebrows)

15/4/14 3:52:38 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Overall /100 is probably still a good score.

15/4/14 3:52:53 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: But it cant get close to 100.

15/4/14 3:53:30 pm: chocho⛄️: You know smth

15/4/14 3:53:43 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: What?

15/4/14 3:54:52 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Im not the kind that says something i dont mean it

15/4/14 3:55:11 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: What i said last yr and february and now are truth

15/4/14 3:55:41 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I never promise what i cant keep. So last wk i told u in case u were wondering why

15/4/14 3:55:52 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: But u never tells me anything

15/4/14 3:57:35 pm: chocho⛄️: It is precisely because you have such scores thats why im uncertain. To me, it will always be that i will be never good enough. Its as if i will only be a comparison. Perhaps ive told you this before. Not directly. But in one way or another. But i wldnt blame you if you didnt catch it perhaps cause its too subtle

15/4/14 3:58:23 pm: chocho⛄️: I dont want to compete to stay at the top forever

15/4/14 3:58:53 pm: chocho⛄️: Sometimes i feel as if im just one among the many?

15/4/14 3:59:11 pm: chocho⛄️: So if say i dont hit your 100 then what. You're gonna keep looking for that 100?

15/4/14 3:59:22 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: There is no comparison. Honestly i havent considered others

15/4/14 3:59:26 pm: chocho⛄️: Say if you found her someday then you'd be going?

15/4/14 3:59:42 pm: chocho⛄️: Thats easy to say

15/4/14 3:59:41 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I didnt say i was finding

15/4/14 4:00:09 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I was trying to work out whats on my heart

15/4/14 4:00:23 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I spent all my time on u since september?

15/4/14 4:00:32 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Do u see me going to know other girls

15/4/14 4:00:38 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Or meeting other girls?

15/4/14 4:00:52 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Its obvious that i wasnt considering others isnt it

15/4/14 4:01:09 pm: chocho⛄️: Its like i want to trust you but there is a resistance i dont know exist

15/4/14 4:01:06 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I never studied with other people

15/4/14 4:01:19 pm: chocho⛄️: Can you not be so defensive..

15/4/14 4:01:51 pm: chocho⛄️: Its like everytime you ask me to talk and then i finally talk and then you just have to shoot me back with all the shields coming up on your side

15/4/14 4:01:57 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Okok

15/4/14 4:03:41 pm: chocho⛄️: I get it. I hear you. I've heard what you say abt only studying with me and what not and yes i know that, yes ive noticed that and yes i am thankful for that which is why i am would like to trust you

15/4/14 4:04:40 pm: chocho⛄️: If what you want to know what im thinking then perhaps i sld be given a chance to say what i was thinking without having to think of rebuttals at the same time..

15/4/14 4:05:19 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Ok u just say

15/4/14 4:08:01 pm: chocho⛄️: Im not saying that you were finding, neither am i accusing you of doing so. Im just saying that thats the kind of thing i will feel. It might not be true but still. Its as if i wont meet your standards la

15/4/14 4:11:26 pm: chocho⛄️: Especially when i feel that you have a very set criteria for what you are looking for in someone so sometimes it stresses me because i just qns what if one day you just think another way of me then its like, dont even need to talk about it kind of over

15/4/14 4:12:16 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I dont like to hurt people. So i dont like to do things im not certain of. And i dun like to promise u things. Thats why its been hanging like that. In february i was really quite certain you were the one. But after that as time goes by i became uncertain again. Like i dont want to one day regret a decision

15/4/14 4:13:22 pm: chocho⛄️: And its a feeling that is reinforced when i talk to you more over the past few months and you always responding me with a kind of response saying that i sld be doing smth else like this or like that

15/4/14 4:14:20 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: For me im actually very happy with u and stuff. But im not sure how long will i feel this way? Like there are instances or things that happen that i feel really uncertain at times. Not because im comparing other people but more of how i feel abt the future

15/4/14 4:14:30 pm: chocho⛄️: Its like i dont ask for a lot i think..just some support and concern and not make me feel like im being put down every single time..

15/4/14 4:15:23 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Im also scared my temperaments will hurt ur feelings and u wont be happy with me..

15/4/14 4:16:25 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I know u r not v happy when u're talking to me.

15/4/14 4:16:39 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Like im sure u r happier talking to many other friends

15/4/14 4:17:05 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Its one of my concern that i cant give u a happy future

15/4/14 4:17:27 pm: chocho⛄️: Not exactly..

15/4/14 4:20:04 pm: chocho⛄️: Maybe i seem less happy now vs last time because i didnt think you'd really think so much abt me..but then as time goes by i think it started to matter more how you'd perceive me so i didnt seem as happy go lucky as last time? Thought you'd judge me quite a bit 😥

15/4/14 4:20:32 pm: chocho⛄️: And then i think my thinking is prolly quite diff from you so perhaps toned down also to avoid quarrelling

15/4/14 4:22:11 pm: chocho⛄️: But no la i liked talking to you just dk how to do so sometimes cause i was afraid you'd scold me if i told you things like whine or stuff

15/4/14 4:23:25 pm: chocho⛄️: But its not like i really mean my whinings its just like whine for fun but im okay. Like i can handle it just wanna complain a bit sometimes lol ok quite stupid i know lololol

15/4/14 4:24:21 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: All those r fine

15/4/14 4:24:40 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Never dropped my 50%

15/4/14 4:26:00 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Maybe because u r so much younger than me, there r certain things i do/dont do around u

15/4/14 4:27:10 pm: chocho⛄️: But then again maybe im a bit of the sensitive kind bah. So like when you say things like i didnt read the news at first abt the car or malay woman that trespassed into sg..then it a bit hurt my feelings lah..like im not knowledgeable enough for you or smthh but like thats not exactly a supportive kind of environment what..

15/4/14 4:27:18 pm: chocho⛄️: Fine..where got fine please..

15/4/14 4:27:48 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Certain stuff im not comfortable with doing around u as compared to if u are nearer my age, or if u are not from sports club

15/4/14 4:28:07 pm: chocho⛄️: You reprimanded me throughout the whole kovan porridge supper plus when i complained of stress again then you'd make those comments like i very free or smth..

15/4/14 4:28:23 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Like i always feel like a brother around u

15/4/14 4:28:32 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Feel like u r a little sister.

15/4/14 4:29:14 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Care and concern yes, feel like scolding when u dont look after urself or dont do things right

15/4/14 4:30:09 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Though its comfortable and happy spending time with you, and always want to spend time with u or fetch u around

15/4/14 4:31:45 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: But at certain times especially recently it seems like its not really what i would call love or lust. That belongs to the other 50%

15/4/14 4:31:57 pm: chocho⛄️: But those were last time those are not now

15/4/14 4:32:19 pm: chocho⛄️: Yeaa i know

15/4/14 4:33:18 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Idk if it is age difference or because u are part of bikerally. It feels awkward if we r in a r/s doing stuff other couples would do

15/4/14 4:33:46 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Feels awkward to think of you in that manner..if u get what i mean

15/4/14 4:34:02 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Like abit incest feel 😣

15/4/14 4:34:35 pm: chocho⛄️: Haha age matters a lot to you i guess

15/4/14 4:34:34 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Like i dont dare or dont know how to feel lust around u

15/4/14 4:35:59 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I dont think its the age bah. Maybe the way u behave. How innocent u are and stuff just make make me feel awkward to see u as a partner with lustful feel

15/4/14 4:36:47 pm: chocho⛄️: Ya laaaaa you see me as being mentally younger than you la

15/4/14 4:36:48 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Like even if my head says u are domestic goddess as people call u and good wife material and stuff

15/4/14 4:37:19 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: But my heart side feels like i am not lustful when with u lo

15/4/14 4:38:05 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Happy and care and concern about you is yes, but i dont know if the feeling equates to love lo

15/4/14 4:38:15 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Im sorry if my words hurt u

15/4/14 4:38:48 pm: chocho⛄️: So you've finally come to terms with that yes?

15/4/14 4:39:51 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Its like if we get together now, there is no honeymoon period feel.? Or rather, i did feel like honeymoon maybe around october-feb

15/4/14 4:42:08 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And i feel it is unfair for you in this way

15/4/14 4:43:10 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U r year1 and i really think im depriving you of alot of opportunities and choices in uni life if i really get tgt with u

15/4/14 4:44:27 pm: chocho⛄️: What you're really telling me after all this is that you've just never thought of me as an equal lo right? Lol

15/4/14 4:45:03 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Equal as in what

15/4/14 4:45:42 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Im not saying u are lower level leh if thats what u think im saying

15/4/14 4:46:20 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Its not a level higher or lower thing

15/4/14 4:46:42 pm: chocho⛄️: Somehow seems to equate

15/4/14 4:47:13 pm: chocho⛄️: Lololol its okay laa

15/4/14 4:47:20 pm: chocho⛄️: I get your drifttt

15/4/14 4:51:11 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Its like i very care abt u and i want to spend time with u, but its weird to think of stuff beyond that level. Like in terms of love and lust, it just feel weird. Feels like a wife in a decade long marriage maybe? And im depriving you of chances of a real happy honeymoon period

15/4/14 4:53:26 pm: chocho⛄️: I get your drifttt

15/4/14 4:53:33 pm: chocho⛄️: Lol

15/4/14 4:54:01 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: 😭😭😭

15/4/14 4:55:29 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I dont want to deprive u of anything because of my own insufficiency in giving you what u deserve, and i dare not commit because really im uncertain of the future

15/4/14 4:56:20 pm: chocho⛄️: Idk if you're trying to convince me because you are certain abt it yourself or if you are trying to convince yourself

15/4/14 4:56:40 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: About what?

15/4/14 4:57:36 pm: chocho⛄️: But you've never seemed like the kind to be uncertain of what you say so i guess whatever you've just told me is the conclusion you have drawn and is finalll

15/4/14 4:59:27 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Actually last november december i really felt very happy and honeymoon. Really really happy. But that time u always mentioned about ur ex and u are not certain how things could have been different.

15/4/14 5:00:08 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Plus there were instances when u mentioned u payed more attention to me because i drive a car.

15/4/14 5:00:28 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And that night u were drunk at esplanade and the stuff i found out

15/4/14 5:01:20 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I decided to take it slow and until valentine day to think properly

15/4/14 5:02:38 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Valentines day i really thought properly already. But nvm u reject me with reasons of family stuff. Maybe wait until br is over

15/4/14 5:03:25 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Then br is over both of us v moody and the more i think of it the more uncertain i became

15/4/14 5:04:27 pm: chocho⛄️: I rmbed that on vday you told me actly you can dont ask me but your friends were all telling you that you sld ask because otherwise youd be wasting your time

15/4/14 5:05:11 pm: chocho⛄️: To that extent it didnt seem like you really wanted to get tgt with me for your reasons but rather because people were asking you to which is uh lol

15/4/14 5:05:17 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Not my time.. they said im wasting your time if i keep thinking and thinking

15/4/14 5:05:42 pm: chocho⛄️: Yea yea thats what i meant you said

15/4/14 5:06:02 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: They asked my to ask u in december/january

15/4/14 5:06:13 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Vday was my decision to ask

15/4/14 5:06:48 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: During the period u were in thailand was when they tell me not to waste your time

15/4/14 5:07:11 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: They tell me to confess when u come back.

15/4/14 5:07:30 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I was uncertain so i wanted to wait.

15/4/14 5:07:52 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I waited 6wks till i decided lol..

15/4/14 5:08:01 pm: chocho⛄️: But at that time you also told me that you cannot tell me what happens 5 mths down the road. Which nothing wrong abt that. I know why you said that. But it also gave me the feeling that there was a chance things wldnt work out within the next 5 months. Or it may not even need 5 mths to tell that things wldnt work out

15/4/14 5:08:31 pm: chocho⛄️: Which was what i told you

15/4/14 5:08:52 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Im not sure what happens 5mths down the road is if we dont get together and continue hanging like that

15/4/14 5:09:18 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I didnt say im not sure 5mths later if we get tgt on vday

15/4/14 5:09:22 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I think u cannot drink

15/4/14 5:09:30 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U drink everything also remember wrogly

15/4/14 5:09:45 pm: chocho⛄️: We didnt drink on vday!!

15/4/14 5:09:49 pm: chocho⛄️: This i am certain

15/4/14 5:09:52 pm: chocho⛄️: Lol

15/4/14 5:09:49 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Hello????

15/4/14 5:10:00 pm: chocho⛄️: Dont disrupt my train of thought!!

15/4/14 5:10:03 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: We drank 3-4 bottles of blanc

15/4/14 5:10:12 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I alone drank 4

15/4/14 5:10:16 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U drank 3

15/4/14 5:10:29 pm: chocho⛄️: For real?!?

15/4/14 5:10:45 pm: chocho⛄️: Shit

15/4/14 5:10:51 pm: chocho⛄️: Exposed

15/4/14 5:10:52 pm: chocho⛄️: Lol

15/4/14 5:10:56 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Tsktsk

15/4/14 5:11:11 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U really get confused when u drink

15/4/14 5:12:12 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I told u when u were overseas my friend tell me dont waste ur time by leaving u hanging without a status

15/4/14 5:12:23 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: To which i decided to wait another 6wks

15/4/14 5:12:39 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: My decision in feb wasnt based on what others told me

15/4/14 5:12:57 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And  the 5mths thing was only after u reject me

15/4/14 5:13:24 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U reject me because u need ur family's opinion of me before u decide

15/4/14 5:13:28 pm: chocho⛄️: Okay but the point is that the feel i get now is that if you wont keep chasing me now then when we get tgt you will also stop chasing and in the end it will reach a plateau really early either which is the same now

15/4/14 5:13:40 pm: chocho⛄️: Okay wait

15/4/14 5:13:38 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U wanted them to be involved in choosing ur nx bf

15/4/14 5:14:20 pm: chocho⛄️: I dont get confused when i drink i just become really honest

15/4/14 5:14:22 pm: chocho⛄️: Next

15/4/14 5:14:27 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: The 5mth was only because u rejected me then i said i cant promise i will feel the same way 5mths later if we keep hanging out like that

15/4/14 5:14:34 pm: chocho⛄️: That wasnt the reason why i rejected

15/4/14 5:14:45 pm: chocho⛄️: Yea i know i rmb lol

15/4/14 5:15:21 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: No, u rejected before i even mention abt how i feel 5mths later

15/4/14 5:15:34 pm: chocho⛄️: Yea i did

15/4/14 5:15:37 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Thats not the reason u reject me

15/4/14 5:15:47 pm: chocho⛄️: But is not primarily cause of my family

15/4/14 5:16:10 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: It was okay. U said u wont get tgt before ur mum and grandma meet me

15/4/14 5:16:15 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Which is absurd

15/4/14 5:16:35 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Im 25 and i need the girl's grandma to approve of me before we date

15/4/14 5:16:57 pm: chocho⛄️: I said that i dont want to

15/4/14 5:17:06 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Thats why i feel sometimes u are like a little sis because of ur values like that

15/4/14 5:17:38 pm: chocho⛄️: But my point of rejection wasnt cause of my family

15/4/14 5:18:10 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: How would u feel if i need u to meet my parents before i confess to u?

15/4/14 5:18:37 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Imagine u r 25 and some guy tell u that he need his parents to approve of u

15/4/14 5:18:56 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U would think he cant make decision on his own isnt it.

15/4/14 5:19:44 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Then what was ur point of rejection? Definitely not the 5mth thing

15/4/14 5:21:54 pm: chocho⛄️: And you sldnt be telling me that is absurd. It only tells me that you dont respect why i want to show you to my fam. Its cause i dont want you be someone so elusive from my fam that i have to keep making decisions to choose betw either sides over and over again. And you also dont understand that its not easy for me to tell them cause im not used to saying much so it wld mean quite a lot. But still it doesnt mean that i cant make a decision on my own

15/4/14 5:22:20 pm: chocho⛄️: Because my bf is ultimately chosen by me and not my parents or relatives

15/4/14 5:22:59 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Ur bf should be chosen by u, not ur family

15/4/14 5:23:12 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Ur bf is not ur husband

15/4/14 5:23:49 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: To me and to my friends it is just i wrong sequence

15/4/14 5:23:58 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: A wrong sequence

15/4/14 5:25:13 pm: chocho⛄️: The point was that i didnt feel that you really fancied me. Its been the same all these while and even more so now. Even if i like you, i didnt want to be in a position where i like more than the other likes me back. then its going to be so hard over and over again

15/4/14 5:25:26 pm: chocho⛄️: Yea thats what i said what. I said chosen by me what

15/4/14 5:25:58 pm: chocho⛄️: If wtv i tell you you're gonna discuss it with your friends then isnt it just the same

15/4/14 5:26:23 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: No? U said u dont want to make another wrong decision and u want ur family to be part of the decision making before u decide

15/4/14 5:26:58 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: My friends are not part of the decision making

15/4/14 5:27:07 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: But u want ur family to be

15/4/14 5:28:02 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I didnt say i want certain friends to meet u first before i can confess to u

15/4/14 5:28:23 pm: chocho⛄️: Yea they will be part of my decision making cause i want to be able to tell them that hey im going out with who and i'd like to get tgt with who.

15/4/14 5:28:40 pm: chocho⛄️: Meeting you wld be just to put a face to the name i mention

15/4/14 5:29:00 pm: chocho⛄️: So you wont just be this somebody somebody that i talk abt

15/4/14 5:29:20 pm: chocho⛄️: My parents are not the kind to say you can or cannot date whoever as well

15/4/14 5:29:40 pm: chocho⛄️: They will just ask me more abt the person and want to know the person la

15/4/14 5:29:54 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: That is a different thing altogether already

15/4/14 5:30:01 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Thats not what u said back then

15/4/14 5:30:13 pm: chocho⛄️: Its like wtv you are saying you dont try to understand what i mean and why i do certain things

15/4/14 5:30:34 pm: chocho⛄️: You just take it and put a meaning to it yourself and then react against it

15/4/14 5:30:50 pm: chocho⛄️: You never asked me to explain

15/4/14 5:31:04 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: This kind of thing also need to ask u in detail mehhh

15/4/14 5:31:13 pm: chocho⛄️: You just assumed it by yourself and got mad over it

15/4/14 5:31:14 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I just take ur surface meaning wad

15/4/14 5:31:36 pm: chocho⛄️: And thats where the problem lies

15/4/14 5:31:35 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Now u r just trying to justify what u said back then

15/4/14 5:31:53 pm: chocho⛄️: If thats what you think then so be it

15/4/14 5:31:51 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: By bringing in new stories which wasnt existent back then

15/4/14 5:32:02 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And blame me for "not asking u to explain"?

15/4/14 5:32:07 pm: chocho⛄️: Whatever i say you wont take it in

15/4/14 5:32:10 pm: chocho⛄️: Dude

15/4/14 5:32:16 pm: chocho⛄️: I NEVER BLAMED YOU

15/4/14 5:32:49 pm: chocho⛄️: It was what i meant all the time

15/4/14 5:33:08 pm: chocho⛄️: Its the same as how our conversations always end up in misunderstandings

15/4/14 5:33:11 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: So im supposed to ask u in detail everytime i say something??

15/4/14 5:33:23 pm: chocho⛄️: I dont need you to

15/4/14 5:33:35 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Otherwise nx time u will say "thats not what i meant. u never ask me to explain"

15/4/14 5:33:48 pm: chocho⛄️: I apologise that its my fault that i didnt make it clear then. That i assumed youd understand when i said those words as well

15/4/14 5:34:22 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I mean. Who tells someone that they need to show u to their parents before accepting you?

15/4/14 5:34:36 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And u expect me not to take it as surface meaning?

15/4/14 5:35:03 pm: chocho⛄️: Okok if you really want to put it this way then im sorry

15/4/14 5:35:12 pm: chocho⛄️: You can put all the blame on me ok

15/4/14 5:35:36 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Even with that, i still never gave up on u wad

15/4/14 5:35:49 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I never get pissed with ur demand

15/4/14 5:36:17 pm: chocho⛄️: Idk what you're trying to say alr now

15/4/14 5:36:45 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: it just seemed as though anything also can

15/4/14 5:37:26 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I ask u out also can, dont ask u out also can, eat also can, dont eat also can, but get tgt cannot

15/4/14 5:38:03 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Its like u just dont mind things to hang this way.

15/4/14 5:38:38 pm: chocho⛄️: I mind

15/4/14 5:38:44 pm: chocho⛄️: But what can i do about it

15/4/14 5:39:24 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U never say anything

15/4/14 5:39:38 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U just wait for me to pull the strings everyday

15/4/14 5:39:56 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And its 7mths now

15/4/14 5:40:10 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: And i gets tired

15/4/14 5:41:03 pm: chocho⛄️: Its 7 mths and i still cannot be sure whether you really like me or im just one of the many

15/4/14 5:41:44 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: In feb i told u i really like u wad

15/4/14 5:41:58 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: U want me to ask u once a week?

15/4/14 5:42:36 pm: chocho⛄️: Its like sometimes your actions dont tell and i dont want to seem like i really like you more than you do towards me

15/4/14 5:42:55 pm: chocho⛄️: But time changes things so im afraid

15/4/14 5:43:06 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: My actions? How abt u never action at all

15/4/14 5:43:42 pm: chocho⛄️: Its like you expect so much from me but i feel like i can only give this much

15/4/14 5:43:56 pm: chocho⛄️: Then in the end it feels like i am inferior or smth

15/4/14 5:44:22 pm: chocho⛄️: Yea okok i get it

15/4/14 5:44:31 pm: chocho⛄️: The problem lies with me ok

15/4/14 5:45:35 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I told u i climbed the wall of the castle, but sit on the wall. After awhile i lost the momentum to take the leap of faith

15/4/14 5:45:44 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: So its my fault la

15/4/14 5:46:08 pm: chocho⛄️: I wldnt find you at your condo to swim if i minded..

15/4/14 5:46:22 pm: chocho⛄️: Maybe my steps are not as bold as yours..

15/4/14 5:46:52 pm: chocho⛄️: But thats my way of expression..

15/4/14 5:48:24 pm: chocho⛄️: And i wld hug you a lot more times than i did if i didnt feel so small

15/4/14 5:49:03 pm: chocho⛄️: But thats okayy

15/4/14 5:49:14 pm: chocho⛄️: Time changes things

15/4/14 5:49:29 pm: chocho⛄️: I have my fair share of wrongs as welll

15/4/14 5:52:26 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Idk what to say la..

15/4/14 5:53:03 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: I dont want u to change because of me

15/4/14 5:56:36 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: But i also scared i will change

15/4/14 6:28:34 pm: Shao(ye) Chen: Why u not replying?