Goalball reflection #1 (26/02/16)

Due to the rain last week, training was cancelled and we attended our first training this week instead.

It was interesting to see the way they met each other and recognised one another. 

It took me a while to get used to the way things were, but I was more aware my environment after that. Within the first hour of arriving at meeting the athletes, I became aware of the daily actions, movements and way of doing things that I have taken for granted. Even simple things such as giving instructions like "go for your water break" are some of the abilities that I take for granted. It may be a something that is easy for those who are sighted, but without the use of sound and touch, it is a challenge for the blind. This piqued my interest at the beginning of the session.

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On a side note, it has been about close to a month. Everyday has been packed with activities, it feels like time has never stopped and things have just been moving rather quickly. Have had so much time to meet up and reconnect with old friends, given new friends time to bond and form new connections. Time to actually live and put myself first, to really explore and expose. Life has been different. 

Looking back sometimes and asking myself what would have been if 30th January didn't happen. Perhaps it was a good change and an even better timing. A time where both of us were subconsciously feeling very tied down and embittered by all the unsaid expectations. Some things still don't change, like my expectations in other's character and behaviour, but this liberty, this freedom that we give each other - space and time away (that which i have wrongfully thought i was not guilty of previously) - now, is really rather priceless. 

Although there may have been good times, and good feelings that abound previously and am still attached to, it is also nice to think of them as a once has been. Too many a times we may miss the person who could have been. But this, this time, to have had is enough for me.

To better times forward.